We obviously aren't working out. And I've come to face the fact that I can't force him to love me. I think the reason I've been making up excuses for him is because of the way I feel. 

I am emotionally attached to this boy. He has completely won me over.

He's the only person who can make me as happy as can be

and also the most miserable I've ever been.

I've realized that I'm letting him. So I am going to talk to him and I'm not going to force him into this relationship if it's not what he wants.

We really need to talk right now. Because I know something's up with him. He just refuses to talk to me. But we need to fix this because I've endured enough pain and I need to get this straight.

No matter how much it'll hurt me