I'm definitely feeling the pressure.

I've been so tired lately from lacrosse plus my allergies are pulling me down.

Tomorrow I have to run the 5k and it's not that bad at all

But it's 2 am now, I just had a game today

and I'm completely exhausted. My cousin knows all of this and she still can't let me sleep. She's so inconsiderate sometimes. If she wants me to get off the computer if she's reading because she doesn't like my typing then I do it for her. I'm like her maid most of the time. She said so herself. I clean all her messes for her and she can barely do simple things for me like just be a little quiet when I'm trying to sleep. Sometimes I'm just so kind to her she takes so much advantage of me. I've had enough of her. She always does it. She has absolutely no conscience. 

I can't wait until high school ends.

But then again I can.

Because I can't even afford college and I have to depend on my grades and worry about all this after high school stuff now because all this stuff in my life is just kicking me in the butt.

I'm not sure why I'm breaking down. Maybe it's all the stress I put on myself lately. Maybe it's because I'm so upset that my cousin couldn't do this simple thing for me. It doesn't even matter anymore because I can't even sleep anymore. And if I do sleep now, I'll only have about five hours of sleep.

I'm really confused. And upset.

What do I do?