So I'm not really sure why I give him so many chances.
And I find myself to be making up excuses for him a lot lately.

He told me
i'm sorry for the mistakes
and i really want to make it work this time

and that's what he said the second time
and now it seems like he's forgotten that again

when I'm with him, I don't sense any happiness from him
I feel like he doesn't want to be with me when I'm there

and now I'm still giving him chances
and making excuses

I'm giving him time to show me that maybe he really does care, maybe it really does matter to him like it does for me. I'm using my period as an excuse now too. Telling myself that maybe I'm overthinking it? I mean, maybe I am. I don't know but something's changed with him. I know I still treat him the say and sadly, I still love him the same but there's something different. He's acting different.

This has happened before. I can only hope now.