I wish I could say I'm okay because I saw this coming,
but I'm not.

I knew I'd be the chicken soup again
to make him feel better from her
because he was upset with her
and when he was okay again
he wouldn't need his trusty chicken soup anymore

But I feel so stupid for letting him do this to me again and again
I'm letting myself get hurt
I always do because of these crazy feelings I have for him.

I'm so madly in love it's unhealthy
So madly in love that I let him do this to me

But maybe it's not only him

"someone told me about you and guess what? you just proved them right."

so it must be me too.
and of course I know that I'm not the greatest person, but I actually believed that he accepted that. A part of me actually believed that he really wanted to make this work.

I should've known.
So it's my fault all over again.
I'm so sick of feeling like this
and I'm sick of myself because I know it's my fault.