I could say that life is good...and it is. But not entirely..

The FCHS marching band was at VBODA yesterday which is states for marching band.
We got there and did the usual; unloaded, got into uniform, and then got ready to perform. I was already pretty pissed because of Jason<--not very surprising. We all just mentally prepared ourselves. I reminded myself of my usual mistakes and told myself how to avoid them. Alas, it was time for our performance. We got on the field and it's always really hectic setting up.

To my surprise, I did great on my part. Overall, we did really good. Our best performance :)

When it was time for the rating, I'm pretty sure I wasn't the only person wishing and hoping.

"Falls Church High School, your final rating is....superior"

That rush. That feeling. It was amazing.
We worked so hard for it and we definitely deserved it.
It was an unbeatable feeling. The rest of the day would be great.
I knew it. And it was :)

On the bus ride to our VBODA location, I was with Joneil.
I kind of..I don't know how to explain it but it's not there's something different. It's not quite the same. I was a lot happier before but maybe everything that's happened to us has affected the way I feel about him? or the way I feel when I'm with him? I'm not sure if it's the same kind of happy. At the same time though I don't want to do anything I might regret. So, I guess I'm just giving it some time.

It's funny because we [Joneil & me] always expect for him to be the one to change his mind...but this time, it might be me?

I'm really not sure. So I'll just wait & see.